
Its crumbled right out from under me right before my very eyes my world lays in peices waiting for me to figure everything out and put it back together. My own little puzzle.
It wasn't suppose to happen like this Senior year was suppose to be great full of unforgetable memories and fun times its been nothing but a nightmare for me. I'm so stressed and nervous about everything and anything.
I wish I had a fast forward button to skip over all this and go to the better parts of life, but thats not how it works, life isnt that easy it simply can't be... As much as I'd like to believe my knight in shining armor is going to save me from this dragon and ride me into the sunset on his trusty steed then we'll live happily ever after it isnt going to work like that.
I'm the princess and the knight, I have to be my own hero, I have to believe in myself to make it through all of this. It's my life and they're my problems, sure people can help but I feel like no one can really find the right words to make me feel better. I don't really think anyone can relate to what I'm going through...but who knows my problems may be minute to others.
I guess these trials are just preparing me for the path ahead, with isnt looking to smooth right now.
I'll get away from all this one day, I know my happily ever after is out there somewheres I just have to be patient, which I am most certainly not.
My heads up in the clouds while my bodys living in reality
Its tough to stuggle like this and not be able to explain to anyone how you feel. I wish someone could relate. I wish someone could make all my woes go away. I wish I could disapear.
I need something great to happen, I need a fairygod mother, I need a miracle.
All I can do is cling to my last bit of sanity and hope for the best...thats all I can do anymore. I'm doing my best what else do you want from me?!
I'm doing my best to stay afloat hoping I'll catch the next life boat.
God is our nonfairy, total reality Father :]
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