Week 1

The count down has begun, one down and thirty-nine weeks left till May twenty-third.

Its crazy just last week I was saying how I'm not ready to graduate and go to college and now i couldnt be more excited to go just to get away from all of this, the people the drama all the hype about high school.

I've lived in that world for four years now and it's to over rated for my taste.

Ive gone through the good the bad the ugly the great the horrible and the embarresing. I've learned alot about myself and alot about others. They say high school are the best years of your life but I'm here to tell you No its not. Atleast for me it wasnt, not saying it wasnt good because there were some of the most amazing moments that I'm never going to forget wrapped up in these four tiny years.

Its full of trials about right and wrong it not about making a name for yourself and its not going to be a walk in the park. Its about preparing yourself physically and mentaly for the challenges outside of our sheltered lives, but then there are some schools who can't even do that right.

Lifes not gonig to give you a second chance when you screw up or do something wrong. They're not going to pick you up off your ass and ask if youre ok, theyre gonna leave you there to dust yourself off.

In the world of today people arent nice and they dont give a shit, I for one have learned this...and in our generation weve been over run by this disease called lazyness. Things aren't just handed to you, you have to work for it. We complain because it's to hard and we simply give up, how old are we now?

As most of us go through our last year there has to be a goal something we look to that will keep us going...but most of us dont even know if were going to college. There are certain people out there that dont know what they're going to do and this makes me worry. I know youre smart enough I know you can do what ever you can put your mind to I wish you would try harder. It hurts me inside because i dont know if I can have that in my life.

Life can't be carefree forever.

I've got big plans for my life and at times I don't know if anyones going to be able to keep up with me. I wish I wasn't compulsive like this but hey I'm just a girl who knows what she wants. I know some people won't be able to keep up and maybe thats for the best I don't need them in my life anyways, but as for other people I'm rooting for them cuz they seem like the underdog in all of this.

I wish I could make them understand but I can't seem to get it out in the right words. I wanna shake them but what go is that gonna do? I'm just scared I want them need them in my life...

Promises are just words.

I can't wait to get out of this prision and dive right into a whole new experience. I'm ready to get rid of the drama and the clicks and show the world what I'm made of.

Somethings changed this year in me and i dont know if its for better or for worse. It's time to show the real me...not the fake emo bitch that everyone apparently thinks I am...who knows guess its just time to ride the wave.